Questions from a SOFT individual..

I pride myself into being a confident, self assured person.

Yet, I am not shy of incidents,instances and circumstances in which I (unintentionally) seek 'support' after a good soul bashing.

So, that's 2 things I did wrong there.

1. I got bashed... My ass got kicked... My confidence/ego was shattered and put down on the ground
2. I took support to get some respite

Now both the above do not happen to me often. By my nature-I'm an amicable,pleasant 'sorta fellow' (Yeah I know it doesn't seem so from my blog)- but that also makes me an EASY target for some good ol' frustration ranting- a walking talking bulls eye for folks who are having bad days- (or so my bashed up soul believes)

'Do you feel like shit? Well...use ME..your personal TARGET PRACTICE to get much needed relief!'

'Ahh here comes the pillow.. lets tear him to shreds' -say the other people...

Usually followed by mental punches and kicks...there I am lying on the ground-oozing out ego and confidence blood cells.

Well I term you as morons.

I always think power and rank brings along with it immense responsibility. Responsibility to care and nurture individuals in the team and not treat them like cattle or JUST CONSTANTLY POINT OUT THEIR MISTAKES. It has to be a balanced approach-give out compliments and criticisms in equal measures- but ONLY when they are well deserved. Yesterday, I got a good 'bollocking' for something which was partly my fault- well at least I'm accepting it... but not WHOLLY... oh no! It's me-after all. People's expectations can be a funny thing you know.

So I present today a list of questions- it's a slightly vague list- with no real answers- actually none at all!- but it just represents some food for thought today. And probably some of these questions may be answered as future blog posts:

• Do you behave differently when others are around?
• Do you classify yourself as a soft individual?
• Can you be one person one minute... and completely another the next?
• Do you like to make people smile?
• Do you think it's critical what other people think of you?
• Do you like resorting to self help/motivational tools from time to time?
• Do you sometimes feel you're the best person in the room?
• Do you sometimes think you're untouchable?
• Do you feel you have to be RIGHT all the time?
• Do you write down a daily list achievable goals?
• Do you find it's easier to find joy in differences than similarities?
• Are your friends all like you- or Unlike you?
• Do you like meeting different people? (and by different I mean slight social outcasts)
  
• Do you think you can achieve/accomplish almost anything?
• At the same time- do you feel like you have the potential to do anything but not the DRIVE?
  
• Do you have more than 3-4 thoughts at any given point of time?
• Are you thinking something now- while reading this list?
• Do you sometimes feel that if you did it... then it's acceptable?
  
• Is your ego sometimes too big for you?
• Do you think credit is where credit's due?
• Do you wish your diet included more nutritious stuff?
  
• Do you feel like changing the world-in a small,meaningful way?
• Are you sometimes frustrated by the lack of opportunity?
• Do you feel it's wrong to judge other people?
• Do you know that you're wrong in a situation but still not ADMIT your fault?
• Do you sometimes feel you Bullshit quite a lot?
• Do you make assumptions about people the first time you meet them?
• Do you possess a 'stereotype syndrome'?
• Do you dislike taking any emotional support from people?
  
• Do you sometimes feel you know more about 'stuff' than the next person?
• Do you feel frustrated by a plateau- both mentally and physically?
• Do you wish you could do something new each day?
• Do you control your words and emotions-just for things to remain OK?
• Do you feel like giving another person a massive piece of your mind?
• Do you feel regret for silly actions in the past?
• Do you wish to stand out from the crowd?
• Do you say sorry quite often?
  
• Do people often assume you as 'somebody' else?
• Do you feel angry when you let someone down?
• Do you feel people should tell you what they EXPECT from you?
• Do you feel regret for something you haven't done or have planned on doing for a long time?
• Do you procrastinate?
• Do you sometimes take the stairs when others are taking the escalators?
• Do you sometimes feel smug about being slightly different?
• Does your anxiety get the best of you sometimes?
• Do you sometimes get hurt a lot on one particular day?
• Do you like being looked at?
• Are you hypocritical?
  
• Would you go back and change anything in your life?
• Are you sometimes surprised that people are not what they actually seem?
• Do wish to stand out from a crowd?
• Do you dislike the 'herd mentality'?
• Do you think it's wrong to expect anything of anybody?
  
• Would you ever talk down to someone intentionally- to make them feel bad?
• Do you think big moments in life are few and far in between?
• Do you realize the good parts-only after they're over?
• Do you cherish the NOW... or do you revel in the past?
• Would you ever be someone Else's vision?
• Do you often go 'out of your way' to help someone?
• Do you believe in what you reap is what you sow?
• Do you ponder over failures more than success?
• Would you rather be different yet weird OR boring yet accepted?
  
• Do you sometimes wish you could be someone else in another situation?
• Do you feel you should be stronger individual?
• Do you think people would give you less BS if you were giving them BS instead?
• Do you think what goes around-comes around?
• Do you feel sometimes people should be happy with their RESPECTIVE views? (I respect your viewpoint- But I'll stick to mine thanks)
• Do you hope that people talk good about you all the time?
• Do you dislike people interrupting you?
• Do you sometimes feel let down by your own in-actions?
• Do you sometimes feel you're running out of time?
• Do you think that your life is moving in the right/planned direction?
  
• Are you a daydreamer?
  
• Do you sometimes feel you're not cut out for working in teams?
• Do you think being generally nice,gentle and well mannered is perceived as being SOFT by some individuals?
• Do you think good deeds are rewarded and bad ones are punished?
• Do you dislike people basing their judgements on OTHER people's judgements?
• Do you dislike being told what's wrong or Right by someone you never gave your advice to?
• Would you like it if you people would remember you after you're gone?..in a good way
• Do you think you're going slightly mad reading this list?

If your answers are yes or 'partly yes' to most of the questions above- WELCOME TO MY WORLD. Hope you enjoy your stay. You're truly a part of an ELITE group of people.

Be proud of who you are- I know sometimes I question myself and my beliefs- but that's what life throws us. Moments of doubt shall clear away when we just look WITHIN. All our answers are hidden deep within our core. You'll be surprised... pleasantly.

Uncover yourself. Discover yourself.